Running Around Crazy!

The last two days have been pretty great, actually. The other night I sent my cousin Sasha a text message freaking out about my life, telling her I needed to see her as soon as she had time. I know, a little dramatic, but it's the only way I can get her attention. Funny, that's usually about the only way you can get one of the younger Shelton cousin's attention. I'm referring to Sasha, Jacqui, Karina, and myself. There's just something about the time I spend with my cousins and the things we talk about that make me proud and just feel better. One thing's for sure, we are known for telling it like it is. You know that comment everyone is thinking, but won't say? Yeah, we say it.

I met up with Sash yesterday at the Original Pancake House.. sorry, but IHOP doesn't hold a candle to this place. We ate so much.. she indulged in pumpkin pancakes that didn't actually taste like pumpkin--funny how that works..yet she crushed them, and I ordered blueberry pancakes. So I spilled my life to her, as I usually do. I can seriously tell her anything and for some reason she gets all the juicy details outta me. She never judges me and she has the life experience to give me sound advice that I actually feel ten times better on the drive home. I mean, I don't know what it is, but lately, when it come to relationships and men, I've just made the poorest decisions. Ask me at a later date what it means to be love drunk and I'd be happy to tell you. Oh yeah, I will say, however, never start dating a guy who is the carbon copy of your ex boyfriend. It's Ben all over again. But the good parts. I realize I like guys who like cars, or in this case his truck, his bike, good music with good beats, loves to spend time with family, loves Family Guy--yeah, really, likes to be lazy, but knows how to go out and have fun, can dress well, pays for me whenever we go out, has ambition for his life, sets attainable career goals, goes after what he wants, and the list goes on. I mean his mother is even Jewish! I love me some Jewish mothers.. Honestly, if I were to meet an attractive, successful Messianic Jewish man I would dieeeee. Let's date, court, swoon, take dance lessons, get engaged, whatever, just GET IN MY LIFE! I'm totally exaggerating...and ew! I sound desperate haha. A part of me just wants to be like PEACE OUT BOYS IM TIREDDD OF U. I just want to have fun with my girls. Bahh. I might change my mind tomorrow. I like that there is nothing holding me down at the moment.

I then went to dinner with Seye at Houston's, one of my favorite restuarants ever! It used to be one of Ben and I's places. Thank God everywhere is free range, now. Seye is one of my friends I've known since elementary school. He's probably one of the best dressed friends I have and he's actually a legit nice guy. But not one of those pansy nice guys who never gets what he wants and gets walked all over. He gets it DONE! :-) Hopefully I'll be meeting up with him and some others tomorrow night! He's possibly looking to attend grad school in Miami.. and um, be my guest, Seye! I will be more than happy to come visit. One thing that always makes me laugh.. he LIVES in Baltimore, WORKS in Arlington, is it? and goes OUT in DC and Bethesda..such a mess, I love it.

Today, I picked up my fabulous friend Theresa. She was literally my second friend at Liberty. She became one of my best friends fast. She's been in DC for a while doing her internship and then she also just finished up a semester working for the DOE. She is the most hard working women I have ever known, and so motivating. She is going to live with her parents for a few months in Seattle to take a much needed break. I may be going out there to visit her, so that should be fab. Theresa plays the hard working businesswoman who has little time for play, but I can't wait until she gets back out here so we can go out and she can 'let her hair down' and meet some men that are ACTUALLY worthy of her time. She's a pastry chef, she has long black hair, she's beautiful and curvy... GAH ok, I need to stop, this is not a personal ad for my best friend! Plus, she'd kill me if she were to come across this.

Finally, I went over to Katie's for some much needed chill time. I love going to her house to just chill on the couch. We eat way too much veggies and salsa, and always have at least one glass of wine, (looooove that!) but I love spending time with her, because she seriously knows everything.. about.. everything! Katie, I know you're reading this like, OMG SHUT UP! haha. Don't forget, next time I see you, we're TAKING PICTURES!

Tomorrow, it's chillin in Glen Burnie with my oldest sis, and then taking the Gremlin to my house for a sleepover while I, myself have a night out in Bethesda. <3

New Beginnings!

Proof someone's not worthy of your time, effort, and friendship is finding out they have a problem with you through reading their blog. For the second time, now, too! Weak, I know. Anyways, now that my point has been made, I can successfully move on.

This past weekend I went to a wedding in Norfolk, Va. It was a lot of fun! I cried a bunch, danced, ate chocolate covered strawberries, drank champagne, and spent a ridiculous amount of time in the car for one day. Congratulations Justin and Dianna! You two are a beautiful couple.

January 24, 2009


TBeem and I with the fabulous bride!


My amazing date


I can't wait to see everyone again.. until then.. love u all!

As 2008 came to a close...

I've learned...

that it pays to know what you want out of life.
that I'm the most anal account executive my PR classes have ever seen.
that I can't do it all by myself. ...And that's ok.
to pay closer attention to detail.
I take way too many medications and I'm only 23.
I've lost a lot of weight recently, for different reasons, but I love it.
that Prednisone no longer has to rule my health.
that I can't take on the grieving process for anyone else but myself.
that sometimes you have to hit rock bottom before you can get back to the top.
that family is the most important thing.
that I'm not a homebody anymore--thank GOD!
that it's ok to sit in your car for five hours straight talking to God and my father.
if you have one good friend, you're blessed.
that enabling a man to hurt and abuse you is just as bad as him doing it.
that having a plan to live by and having a timetable attached to that can be good, but not when it comes to getting married and having babies.
that sometimes you just have to let things happen.
that not many things are in my control.
that there are some boys out there who will never really "get it."
there are actually "good" guys.
I have a problem with commitment.
Love Cures the Commitment Phobe.
that I need to make my daddy proud; he's up in heaven watching down on me as my Guardian Angel.
that just because you click with someone physically, doesn't mean they are boyfriend material.
that having a health condition SUCKS.
that living in that house where all the memories were made.. it's not such a great thing.
that I want Jesus to come back NOW more than EVER.
that I have no reason to be cynical about love, I had a great example of what a relationship should be growing up.
that I better start taking control of my life, with God's help, because nobody's going to do it for me.
that I need to go out and dance more often.. SO FUN!
what I need to be looking for in a future husband.
that I can never take over someone else's grieving process.. they have to do it in their own time, in their own way.
that I don't consider it running away, just a fresh start in a different direction.
that I assume people are full of shit until they prove me otherwise.
that I wish I were smart enough to become a nurse...ahh!
happiness is a choice.
a Mimosa is my new favorite cocktail..Sunday brunch anyone?
not to sweat the small stuff.
to put my death wish aside long enough to realize Life is Precious.
that I need a guy who can put me in my place *sweetly* and who can take my attitude, and throw it right back.
I need a guy who is excited by my craziness!
I need a guy who will take care of me when I'm sick
that it's all in how I enter a situation.. keep it light.
I want to be a successful businesswoman.
I want to get my MBA.
I want to MOVE: GA? NC? PA? TN?

I'm not finished with this, but I have to drive to Richmond tomorrow and I need my energy.. night lovers.. Happy New Year

Really??

I wish this website had a radar detector so that each entry could be scanned for any bullshit before publishing a post. I mean, really. I read some of these blogs and I just laugh. Or cringe..either one. Sometimes I think people use blogging as a way to portray their lives as if they were perfect and fabulous in every way, everyday. Just in case you were wondering, you ARE that transparent.

Hmmm. Ok so this is a topic that nobody really likes to talk about.. jealousy. Yep, it's pretty real these days. Everyone feels it, including me. Guys are jealous of other guys, and the same thing with girls.. my personal opinion on jealousy is say, for example I were jealous of Ashton, for whatever reason. I WOULDN'T get mad or pissy around her! Instead I would take the things about her I'm "jealous" of and use it as a means to make myself better. Girls are funny like that. No wait, girls are bitchy like that. If you're jealous of your best friend, the last thing you should do is start treating her like she doesn't matter. That just make you look like the idiot. We all have our own individual insecurities, and man do they SUCK! But, if those girls are really your best friends they would only want the best for you, and you for them. Whatever, maybe I just think differently. That's entirely possible. I thought about typing up some examples of what I mean, but egh.. it's not worth it.

Bottom line: don't bother treating your girls or guys like crap if you're jealous of them. Use that feeling as a fuel to motivate you to better yourself. Becoming a bitch doesn't make you look good.