As 2008 came to a close...

I've learned...

that it pays to know what you want out of life.
that I'm the most anal account executive my PR classes have ever seen.
that I can't do it all by myself. ...And that's ok.
to pay closer attention to detail.
I take way too many medications and I'm only 23.
I've lost a lot of weight recently, for different reasons, but I love it.
that Prednisone no longer has to rule my health.
that I can't take on the grieving process for anyone else but myself.
that sometimes you have to hit rock bottom before you can get back to the top.
that family is the most important thing.
that I'm not a homebody anymore--thank GOD!
that it's ok to sit in your car for five hours straight talking to God and my father.
if you have one good friend, you're blessed.
that enabling a man to hurt and abuse you is just as bad as him doing it.
that having a plan to live by and having a timetable attached to that can be good, but not when it comes to getting married and having babies.
that sometimes you just have to let things happen.
that not many things are in my control.
that there are some boys out there who will never really "get it."
there are actually "good" guys.
I have a problem with commitment.
Love Cures the Commitment Phobe.
that I need to make my daddy proud; he's up in heaven watching down on me as my Guardian Angel.
that just because you click with someone physically, doesn't mean they are boyfriend material.
that having a health condition SUCKS.
that living in that house where all the memories were made.. it's not such a great thing.
that I want Jesus to come back NOW more than EVER.
that I have no reason to be cynical about love, I had a great example of what a relationship should be growing up.
that I better start taking control of my life, with God's help, because nobody's going to do it for me.
that I need to go out and dance more often.. SO FUN!
what I need to be looking for in a future husband.
that I can never take over someone else's grieving process.. they have to do it in their own time, in their own way.
that I don't consider it running away, just a fresh start in a different direction.
that I assume people are full of shit until they prove me otherwise.
that I wish I were smart enough to become a nurse...ahh!
happiness is a choice.
a Mimosa is my new favorite cocktail..Sunday brunch anyone?
not to sweat the small stuff.
to put my death wish aside long enough to realize Life is Precious.
that I need a guy who can put me in my place *sweetly* and who can take my attitude, and throw it right back.
I need a guy who is excited by my craziness!
I need a guy who will take care of me when I'm sick
that it's all in how I enter a situation.. keep it light.
I want to be a successful businesswoman.
I want to get my MBA.
I want to MOVE: GA? NC? PA? TN?

I'm not finished with this, but I have to drive to Richmond tomorrow and I need my energy.. night lovers.. Happy New Year

Really??

I wish this website had a radar detector so that each entry could be scanned for any bullshit before publishing a post. I mean, really. I read some of these blogs and I just laugh. Or cringe..either one. Sometimes I think people use blogging as a way to portray their lives as if they were perfect and fabulous in every way, everyday. Just in case you were wondering, you ARE that transparent.

Hmmm. Ok so this is a topic that nobody really likes to talk about.. jealousy. Yep, it's pretty real these days. Everyone feels it, including me. Guys are jealous of other guys, and the same thing with girls.. my personal opinion on jealousy is say, for example I were jealous of Ashton, for whatever reason. I WOULDN'T get mad or pissy around her! Instead I would take the things about her I'm "jealous" of and use it as a means to make myself better. Girls are funny like that. No wait, girls are bitchy like that. If you're jealous of your best friend, the last thing you should do is start treating her like she doesn't matter. That just make you look like the idiot. We all have our own individual insecurities, and man do they SUCK! But, if those girls are really your best friends they would only want the best for you, and you for them. Whatever, maybe I just think differently. That's entirely possible. I thought about typing up some examples of what I mean, but egh.. it's not worth it.

Bottom line: don't bother treating your girls or guys like crap if you're jealous of them. Use that feeling as a fuel to motivate you to better yourself. Becoming a bitch doesn't make you look good.

Starting Over

Taking a slightly different approach in this whole blogging thing. There truly is never a dull moment in my life. Hmm, wait, yeah there was a time span of about a year that my life had little going on with it, but we won't think about that; it's boring. New beginnings are about to take place. We'll see how I handle it. I'd like to think I handle change better than I used to. I'm blessed in the people I've met, experiences I've had, and the lessons I've learned. No doubt they contribute to how I view things today, and make up who I'm going to be. I'm changing every single day. It takes a select few to really be able to keep up with me. I realize I'm usually outta my mind-crazy. Instead of trying to cover it up, I embrace it most of the time. If you can't handle it, I understand... you can keep it moving. It's too late right now to elaborate.

Thank you for reading, and I hope you can take what I dish out... there's just no tellin what I'll say... :)